holiday part 1

Today is a last day for my "cuti raya". A lot of things happened for this almost two weeks holidays. Thanks to God, i spent this almost  two weeks with my family. :) my younger brother has grown up so fast, now, he is taller than my first younger sister, Asneta. I can believe he now is a young teenager. Then, we spent three or four days at Kota Kinabalu and all my relatives came to my house. My cousins from Indonesia, Sepang and Labuan also went back that time. Aunt Ila's family also came to my house. And also, i brought my special guest, Annthonneus. Hahahaha :D He was so shy, to meet all my family members. At Sunday, i watched movie with him and my sisters. We watched "Vampires suck", and it is really sucks. hahaha. You should watch it. I can't stop laughing that time.
Monday, we went back to Ranau. What i like about my family is we like to spend our tea time and share our laughing together. Oh, I missed our Kuih Pisang, Kuih nasi, Kuih tarap and of course with the hot nescafe.. hmmmm miss that moment. Everyday, we went to my grandma's house and sometimes, we dinner together. My father's new house was so big already, He said it will be done by next year. Can't wait to see the final. But now, we are having money problem, we need a lot of money to built the house and at the same time my parent have to spend money on us. But, i know, God will always help us and always give when we need. :D

Then, at Tuesday, i did my questionaire. Thank you to my cuzzies Ryn and Dece for helping me. I got a lot of experiences from this work. It was so tiring and sometimes i want to mad at the restaurant manager. huhu. They don't trusted me. They thought i am from government. Thank God i still have can control my self, hahahaha, but i did cry once, because i can't mad in front of the manager.hahaha.. oh, malunya. I cried in front of Annthonneus!! hahahaha. Buruk perangai, itu pun sy nangis. But still, i want to give thanks to God, i can finished all my questionaire, before i came back here in UKM. 

5years later.

for the next five years, who am i?

A lecturer?

A bussinesswoman?

A teacher?

A housewife?

hmmmm... i am impressed with my friends and cousins, they were successful in their career. when i saw what they have expecially cars,or whatever it is, i asked myself, "when will i have, what they have now?" .. "can i have it one day?" .. "can i be success like them?"..all these questions went through my mind. i still didn't know, what should i do for my future, should i stick to economics? 

Thanks to God. He gave me the answer. Who am i in the future, i leave it to God. He knows and i know He will give me the best and suitable place for me :) .. So, nothing to worry anymore, all i need to do is just keep faith in Him. But of course, don't just keep faith and doing nothing. i should start now, i know God with me :)..

hahahahahaha.. feeling so good today. hahahahahaha ... if u keep talking to God in everything you do,there's nothing to worry even if you have big problems... wahaahahahaha thank you God... 

away

maybe i should stay away for a while. then you know how to appreciate me.

saja bah ni..

me : mau tanya, buli kah taru gambar pki singlet di blogspot?

dia : tidak boleh. no sexy dressing in internet.

wehee~ kana sayang.

Pengampunan

Sejauh timur dari barat, Engkau membuang dosaku

Tiada Kau ingat lagi Pelanggaranku

Jauh ke dalam tubir laut, Kau melemparkan dosaku

Tiada Kau perhitungkan kesalahanku

Betapa besar kasih pengampunan Mu Tuhan

Tak Kau pandang hina hati yang hancur

Ku berterima kasih kepada Mu ya Tuhan

Pengampunan yang Kau beri pulihkanku

Lagu ini, sangat menyentuh hati saya. hari ini (150810) khotbah kebaktian ahad, berkaitan dengan pengampunan. saya post ini, sebab saya perlu share apa yang Tuhan telah sampaikan pada hari ini. Saya sangat bersyukur, kerana punya Tuhan yang sungguh baik. bila diingat kembali, apa yang telah Dia lakukan dalam hidup saya, Dia sentiasa memberikan yang terbaik bagi saya. Dia tidak pernah meninggalkan saya, walaupun seringkali saya jatuh dalam dosa, dan menjauhi Dia, tapi hari  ini saya telah ditegur dan saya sedar, Tuhan tidak pernah menghitung berapa banyak kesalahan yang saya ada. Seteruk mana pun saya, sejahat mana pun saya, betapa saya berdosa, tapi Tuhan tetap tidak meninggalkan saya. begitu juga dengan anda semua, walaupun seringkali kita berasa tidak layak dihadapan Tuhan, tidak layak ke gereja, tapi Tuhan tidak memandang hina terhadap kita, malah Dia sentiasa menerima kita dengan hati yang terbuka. Iblis yang cuba mempengaruhi kita supaya kita rasa hina, jangan sesekali tertipu dengan tipu daya iblis. Tuhan juga telah melepaskan kita dari perhambaan dosa, Dia telah membayar lunas, segala hutang dosa kita. Lihat, betapa baiknya Tuhan, betapa Dia mengasihi kita.Saya sangat bersyukur, walau apa pun pergumulan yang saya hadapi, Tuhan tetap memberikan jalan dan Dia ada di saat saya memerlukannya. kita manusia biasa, harus belajar mengampuni orang lain, biar betapa jahat orang itu, kerana Tuhan sendiri telah mengampuni kita. tidak tau macamana mau gambarkan rasa syukur saya ini, Tuhan sentiasa buka jalan bila saya dalam kesusahan. thanks Lord. :)

hobby.

another hobby. WAITING. and i hate waiting. bye!

sleep

my favorite hobby  is to SLEEP and i don't like it. God, help me. friends, do help me..
Good bye sleep, i am not your best friend anymore.. say HYE to thesis, you are my favorite now . :)